'Wasting time and effort isn’t part of my design'

[magictreehouse]

Wow, I haven’t updated for a whole week. Anyone would think that I didn’t have anything interesting to say. Hmm.

 

I’ve been a bit fed up over the past week really and I’ve been thinking about a lot of stuff. I went to theatre on Tuesday and Wednesday and I was just bored. I’ve still not got anything to do although I think Danielle realised that and asked Phil the director if I was doing lights and sound. The consensus was yes I was, although I still wasn’t given although to do. So I didn’t bother with the Friday rehearsal, hoping they’ll get the hint that I’m not so bothered and I need something to do. Mind you, I’m only available for one rehearsal next week on account of me going back to Crewe for a few days this week. I thought this country was begging for volunteers, apparently we’re not needed. I’d look for something else if there was anything and I didn’t genuinely think that this is something I could really get into.

 

The whole thing just makes me feel like I’m destined to have nothing to do my entire life. It was like this at the library, it’s like that where I work now and it’s like that at the theatre. What is it about me that wherever I go I *never* get to utilise my skills. I’m seriously considering going back to studying actually, for a librarianship and trying to get back into that. It’ll have to be next September now by which time I’ll be 24 (which seems a hell of a long time away considering I’m only 22 now) and I did always say that there was no rush, that with my year’s experience I could go back anytime. I really liked the work at the library, and I was really good at it too. I remember Liz saying that, because I’m male I’d shot straight up the ladder so the whole thing seems like a good idea. I’d have to do it part-time due to me needed money but that’d be ok because I’d hate to study full-time again. I guess it’s just something to think about. I’m at a loss as to what else to do. I certainly don’t want to stay where I am right now. For all my complaining about work though, I did have a good day on Friday. Me, Sarah and Eleanor were a bit bored so we ended up playing online Deal or No Deal which was a laugh.

 

This whole kind of thinking wasn’t helped by the fact that James was away with work with for a few days last week. It was weird having the house to myself for the first time since we moved and I did enjoy it really. I mostly spent the time dancing about to music. Current favourite is the Human League, mmm, so darn good. However, it was pretty lonely and I really found myself itching for some kind of social interaction. So the constant friends issue still stands. It really didn’t help that I was putting old photos on to Facebook and, weirdly, everything single one of my uni friends is on there and so I keep seeing old uni photos of us and it was making me really miss them all. I had a quick browse online for people around here but the usual jaunts harbour so many people with hideous spelling dysfunctions that I just can’t help but feel that there’s no-one I want to know.

 

God I go on a bit. It’s not been all bad though. I’m currently rediscovering the joys of Amiga emulators and what started off as an urge to play Monkey Island again actually caused me discover other such gems such as Flight of the Amazon Queen and Indiana Jones and the Fate of Atlantis (the former’s now freeware, hooray!), which are very similar in design to the legendary Monkey Island. How appropriate, you fight like a cow. They don’t make point and click adventures like that anymore do they? There’s clearly a market for them on the DS! It’d be quite fun to work in the computer games industry, I could spend my whole time playtesting DS games! Hoorah! Mind you, it’d also be good to work in palaeontology or in a zoo but both those dreams have been shot down too. Nevertheless, Theme Park DS should be arriving today so that’ll keep me entertained for a good while :D

 

Yesterday me and James left the house, having done not a lot all weekend at all (which meant we got to finish the good bits of Comic Relief - Tony Blair and Catherine Tate were just bizarre!) We just went through Skipton woods then up and round over the top of them to the edge of Skipton. It was very nice and took about an hour in total so did us good really. Good thing it was downhill all the way on the way back though! We saw a fair few ducks too which always makes me happy. You know what it's nearly time for though don't you? Ducklings?! I can't wait now I have ducks on my doorstep :D And I have to say how nice it now the clocks have gone forward. I always feel so much better when the nights are lighter. I also feel quite because various Easter/my holidays it means that I’m not working a full five day week for a good while! Hooray! See, it really isn’t all bad :D